Back to where I started

I know…I know.  It’s been a while.

I really enjoyed making the vlogs earlier this year…taking a few minutes each day to share something that brought me joy in my day.  But, things started to become pretty tough for me and, honestly, I felt hypocritical talking about something that brought me joy when so much of my world was in chaos.

Lately I’ve been reflecting on the last two years. One thing that I’ve realized is that I’ve stopped taking care of “me”.  There are A LOT of excuses for that, some valid, some not.  But at the end of the day, I’m not doing the things I know I should be doing to take care of myself. Because of that, almost everything else that makes up my life has suffered to some extent. I’ve suffered too, physically and mentally.  My weight is back to where it was in 2013.  I’ve gained almost all of of it back in two years.  I’ve lost my strength and endurance.  I have zero energy. I feel mediocre, sloppy, unworthy; like my best days are behind me.  It’s a terrible place for me.  Now that I see, though, I know I need to get out of it and fast.

The one bright spot is my faith. I know that God is there.  His love surrounds me.  I know that every day, he lights my path to joy.  I need to change the lens through which I see things so that I can see that light.

And begin to drop this baggage.

Live.  Laugh.  Love.




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